It's been a pretty good week, other than the fact that I had a huge episode of chemo brain last Tuesday and forgot to go to go back to work after lunch! Then it took me 2 days to even realize that I'd done that, trust me that really scared me! I now have reminders about EVERYTHING plastered all over the place, in addition to all my pop up reminders on my computer. Bless my boss and co-workers for being so understanding.
Other than that I've been feeling well and have not been as fatigued the past several days. I find that when I'm really stressed the confusion gets much worse, so I'm trying really hard not to let myself get too wound up.
Several people who have walked this road have told me it's not the disease or even the treatment for the disease... it's all the insurance red tape! I'm finding that out first hand. Bill says "God gave us money and if he chooses to take it away He has a good reason or He plans to somehow replace whatever we may lose and that I"m worth all we own." Wish I could be as relaxed as he is about this, but I'm getting better just being around him and listening to his thoughts on all of this.
I know that I did not have a pre-existing condition and I'm trusting God to work it all out. But, as usual I want Him to do it NOW! Do you think there's a lesson in patience somewhere in all of this for me? AGAIN!! It would be so much easier if I'd learn these lessons the first time.
The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, the God of my strength, in whom I will trust. 2 Samuel 22: 2-3
Here's your HUG... You know firsthand that life isn't always easy. But as a recipient of God's blessings, you also know that throughout your life you have been protected by a loving, heavenly Father. And He is still protecting you.
In times of trouble, God is neither distant nor disinterested. To the contrary, God is always present and always engaged in the events of your life. Reach out to Him, and build your future on the Rock, that cannot be shaken; trust in God and rely upon His promises. He can provide everything you really need.... and much, much more. All you need do is open your arms and your heart to Him. Then let Him do the rest.
As you can well imagine I needed this message much more than any of you!
Next chemo on Tuesday. I have lots of things that I want to do this week, so pray that I use good judgment about my limitations.
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Oh Sue, I'm so proud of how you've been handling all of this. It can't be easy...
I'm glad that you have Bill--he's a smart cookie (and a great husband, too!).
Thanks for going to the trouble of starting this blog. I'm sure it will be so very helpful to many people out there who are dealing with breast cancer and all that goes with it.
You go, Girl! :-)
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