Roller coaster of a week

I was sitting here journaling about the last week, all the Dr. visit's, consultations, tests..etc. It been a very "roller coaster" week with each day bringing more information about what I'm facing.

Every time I think I have everything handled another unexpected aspect of my journey with cancer rears it's head, the devil has been working overtime on me. I am determined to keep clinging to my faith and continuing to focus on the Great Physician... He is the one who will heal me!

My niece, Lara sent me a beautiful "clinging cross" I'd never seen one before and it sure made me cry when it arrived, what a wonderful thing for her to send. It fits perfectly in your clenched hand and she recommended I carry it with me to all my appointments, procedures etc. I know it will help me to stay focused on the One who is and always will be my Savior. Someone had given her one of these wonderful crosses when she was first diagnosed and she said it has gotten her through so much.

I took it with me to the Radiation Oncologist today and I'm sure glad I had it as what she had to say was pretty scary. I think I'm ready for Tuesday, I have just one more event scheduled... an orientation at the Breast Center on Monday explaining what to expect on surgery day. It's the day before so I guess it will probably be good to go and get my last minute questions answered.

My grandson's are coming tomorrow to spend the day and overnight that will cheer me up and keep me real busy.

Sunday we have Church and then we'll get ready for our Bible study group Sunday night.

Monday I have that meeting at the Breast Center and I work half a day and then Tuesday will be here... I can hardly wait to get on the other side of Tuesday! Not that it will be the end of my treatment, probably only the beginning... but it will seem like I'm finally really addressing the problem instead of just spinning my wheels doing all the stuff you have to do to get ready!

All of my Dr.'s have been great... really patient and willing to answer all my questions, there is so much to absorb in order to make a wise decision. Each one has a little different slant on what they think is best, but ultimately you have to chose what your course of action will be. It's a heavy responsibility,

I'm sure glad God is in Control!! Thanks so much for all your wonderful emails, phone calls, cards and bountiful prayers!! Except for the very brief moments when I take my eyes off where they need to be, I feel the peace that passes all understanding and the Almighty Presence of God.